Thursday, September 25, 2008

Stupid Results

 I feel like I'm disappointing myself, Babe, and the entire world as I type this: My HcG was negative. Why do I feel like God and the world are rejecting me?

"It's not the end of the world, but sometimes it sure feels like it." (hope2morrow)

29 comments:

Suzanne said...

I'm so sorry. I know that no matter what I say, it won't take away the disappointment, frustration or pain. We're all here for you!

Leslie Laine said...

So sorry to hear about your results. I know it's so disappointing to keep going through this again and again. Remember that we're all here for you, and we're in this boat with you. Take care of yourself.

I Believe in Miracles said...

Oh sweetheart I'm so so sorry to hear this. I was thinking about you today, wondering how you were doing. Let me know if I can do anything for you.
**HUGS**

s.e. said...

I have selfishly been absent as you did your FET cycle and I am having trouble grasping your outcome.

Some kind hearted woman left a comment on my blog today. It left me in tears but I took it to heart. I believed it. I hope you will too.

You are strong. You are so very strong.

Shelby said...

Negatives are the suck. I am so, so sorry. :( My heart hurts for you. After all you've been through, I can only imagine what you must be feeling. Big **HUGS**.

Bri said...

I'm so sorry to hear that! I've been there and I know how much it sucks, yet I have no words of encouragement. Get drunk and eat brownies - that was the therapy I used. You're in my thoughts.

Alex and Jill said...

I'm so sorry, sweetie.

Sometimes I wish God would show us what He's up to. He always has a plan...that we can be certain.

Covering you in prayer...

((HUGS))

courtney said...

The only words I can think are: Suck it stupid test. I don't know if that offers much help. I don't know what the right words re, but I agree, there is hope for tomorrow. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Evergreen said...

I am so sorry. I am so sad for you and Babe. It is so devastating to get the news of a neg beta, and leaves you feeling so helpless and hopeless. Take care of yourself.

InfertileMadWoman said...

I am sorry Sweetie...

Huge Hugs,
Rebel

Tara said...

Sweetheart - I am so sorry. I wish I could say something to help. I am praying for you and sending you lots of hugs. It does really feel like the end of the world, a lot of days. Its ok to act like it is for a little while. It's the end of this cycle's hope, and that feels like the end of the world right now.

I am so, so sorry. I will be praying for you.

debbie said...

I am very, very sorry.

Photogrl said...

So very sorry.

Big {{HUGS}} to you and Babe...

CTagsGirl said...

Awww...hun. My heart broke a little when I saw you post this. I'm sorry just doesn't seem adequate. There isn't anything about this that seems fair or right. Sending big *hugs* and prayers.

Just Me. said...

I saw the header and my heart sank. You're not disappointing anybody, really. I wish there's just something that I could do. Please know that we're here for you. I'm sending you lots of hugs.

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Just Meim said...

There are no words that can make you feel any better, really, but just know that there are others who are weeping with you. We will shout to heaven as loud as we can, in hopes that maybe, next time God will hear us.

Thinking of you, and DH. **HUGS**

The Baker's said...

Oh, hun I am so so sorry. I am crying with you and thinking and praying for you and babe. I so understand somewhat with your frustrations and disappontment. Just know that I am thinking of you. hugs

alison said...

I'm so, so sorry. :(

Mel said...

I am so sorry, dear one. There are no words, just prayers.
*hugs*

Kymberli said...

I'm so sorry. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Heather said...

You are NOT a disappointment - to anyone. We all ache with you. I'm so sorry.

...love Maegan said...

I understand the feeling ...sometimes I just feel like a failure because of it. It's so strange. The only advice I can give {and what I constantly remind myself} is, when it's time, it will happen. Relax, don't think about it. but it's so hard. It will happen!

Cathleen said...

That just stinks!!! You aren't disappointing us or anybody!

So sorry...

Hugs.

LANIE said...

I'm new to this blogging thing, not to the infertility, I wish I didn't know what that word is. My husband & I went through IVF 4 yrs ago, and it was not successful. I know what you mean when you said you felt like god & the whole world was rejecting you. That's how I felt too. But I promise there will be a day you will feel better. I can say that with experience. I am saying a prayer for you, hoping your days get brighter. My husband and I adopted our little boy Jacob. That never seemed like a option before IVF, but it was meant to be. Please don't give up....Lanie

Alex and Jill said...

Just had to say that I love the new pic of you two...so sweet!

Still praying...

((HUGS))

whataboutmyeggs said...

Just thought I would drop by and give a (HUG). I know how you feel.

Erin from Massachusetts said...

I'm so, so, so sorry.

Impossible thing have been done by those who don't give up.

Don't give up.

Hugs,
Erin

P.S. The new blog layout, music and photos are STUNNING. So very pretty.

Alex and Jill said...

I love the new look!! Did you do it yourself?

JJ said...

Im so sorry hun...you all are in my prayers.