Wednesday, October 1, 2008

The "New Do"

Whatcha think of the new do? Personally, I don't think my blog makeover could have come at a more perfect time, I tell ya. Danielle has done an absolutely amazing job, in my opinion. This girl totally rocks! She worked with me to design exactly what I had in mind, she was patient as I changed my mind and wanted to try new things, and she gave me ideas I wouldn't have thought of had she not suggested them. Her blog designs are very affordable, and she is donating a portion of each blog design from now until Tuesday, October 7th to The Susan G. Komen Foundation.  You should go get check out her site, get on her waiting list, and create your own blog magnificence so money will be donated to cancer research. Now! Go check her out! Seriously! NOW I said!

I could honestly go on and on about Danielle!  I have made a new friend in her and am actually working on a surprise project/idea for you all that she is helping create. I can't wait for it to all come together! Danielle, thank you so much for your help! I adore you and our new friendship!


Now, as for help with my contest- I'd like to thank all of you for your input! I have selected two winners: (drum roll, please)

Jill and poppy.f.seed. Ladies, thank you for your help and ideas. I have some medications to send you, so please email me your address. Jill, I'm going to send you a PIO and Estradiol. Poppy, I am going to send you PIO and HCG. Thank you again for your help. My email is hope2morrow@cox.net.

Babe and I actually decided it might be weird and self-indulgent to give the pictures of us as Christmas gifts so we sorta combined a few of your ideas. We decided to make a CD of our favorites to just give to everyone now. That way our family can pick what they want and have their own copies made. This works for us, and it seems less awkward than giving them as gifts. Thanks for your input and ideas!

As far as my failed cycle, I am trying to make the best of it. I feel really awful that I haven't even been able to talk to My Peah on the phone about it. I text messaged her and told her the results were negative, I couldn't talk because I was too upset (nothing against her), and needed some time to process. I feel like a total ass, but every time I even think about this cycle, I bawl. I feel like a blubbering baby. Why is it so difficult to move forward? And why am I treating one of my best confidantes like crap when all she wants to do is support me? If you're reading this, Peah, I love you and am very grateful for you and your friendship. I am just struggling. Struggling to get out of bed. Struggling to make it through the day. Struggling not to curse Aunt Flo, who arrived tonight with a vengeance. Things will get better. Every day, they will.

In the mean time, I am desperately trying to catch up on posts. Bear with me....

"When you're depressed, the whole body is depressed, and it translates to the cellular level. The first objective is to get your energy up, and you can do it through play. It's one of the most powerful ways of breaking up hopelessness and bringing energy into the situation." (O. Carl Simonton)

21 comments:

Shelby said...

I'm sorry to hear things have been so rocky. I'm sure Peah understands your current solitude and when you're ready for the world, you'll come out to play.

And I LOVE the new digs. I think I might have to contact Danielle one of these days. Hubby and I are far from being designers, so we're clueless. Looks great!

Sassy said...

I love the new look. The photos in your sidebar are gorgeous. Great idea with the cd's for Christmas too. :)

Just Me. said...

OOOH! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THE NEW DESIGN!!!!!!! Ok, I'll contact Danielle soon. I love the pictures, you and babe, your furry babies.

I understand the need to hibernate and really try to process your thoughts through. I'm pretty sure Peah would understand that too, as well.

I'm so glad you're blogging cuz I've missed you.

(((((hugs)))))

katd said...

So sorry about the failed cycle. In happy news, your blog looks so beautiful! I am very jealous and am headed over to check out possibilites for mine:)
I love the picture in your header!! Hang in there!

Heather said...

LOVE the new do!

Tara said...

I love the new look! The pictures are gorgeous.

It's ok to take some time to process everything. Peah will understand. Don't beat yourself up - you are dealing with enough.

I am glad you are back - we've missed you!

Mandy said...

I love the new look! I am sorry your are having a hard time. Please know that you have lots of shoulder to cry or lean on! ((hugs))

alison said...

I love the new design, it's so awesome. I love the pic of you and Babe over on the right.

Thanks for all your love and support, when I know that it's not the easiest thing to do when you're having a tough go of things. I'm praying praying praying your day is coming soon. xoxo

Danielle said...

You're so sweet to write such nice things about me. I LOVED working with you and am glad that I found a new friend!

I am sorry about the failed cycle. I'm here if you want to talk.

Kalese said...

Love, Love, Love the new look. It's absolutely fabolous, dahling. :)

One day at a time, you will get there...to the place that feels like normal again.

Big things are coming...I can feel it. :)

HUGS!

poppy.f.seed said...

beautiful new look. I don't know how I missed your last post, my blogroll must be messed up. So sorry for the negative beta.
thanks for picking me! I'll email you.

The Baker's said...

I love the new blog look, and the pictures of you and Babe are awesome, you make a cute couple.

Hang in there with the failed cycle, I am so sorry.I totally understand how you feel with wanting something so bad, it is hard with failure after another. I am still trying to make it through each day sometimes, since the loss and why things happen the way they do. Please know that I am thinking and praying for you hun and that God has a plan for us to be moms someday soon. Each day at a time. I have missed your comments. Hugs

Photogrl said...

Love, love, love the "new do"...it's beautiful! And the pics of you and Babe are great.

My thoughts and prayers are with you...

Big {{HUGS}}

Just Meim said...

I love your blog! It's beautiful and uplifting to look at. And (confession coming:) I can't help but pull it up at least once a day just to listen to your thinkin' music. Particularly the Karmina song. It make me cry everytime, but also gives me peace that I can be how I am, and not be ashamed. Thank you for that!

Alex and Jill said...

I heart your new layout! :)

Okay, I'm going to hold off having you mail me the meds...I'm hoping we won't need them. We'll find out in 2 weeks though! I'm trying to be positive. I'll let you know, k? :)

I'm sure your friend will understand and will be there when you're ready to talk. Don't beat yourself up about it...it just takes time.

You are always in my thoughts and prayers...

((HUGS))

Jill said...

I really like your new blog look! Danielle seems very talented!

I've been away from blogging lately, so just found out about your negative beta. I'm so sorry. Hang in there-you'll get through it. ((hugs))

CC said...

Danielle did an awesome job. It looks GREAT! Your timeline looks a lot like mine (initially). Off birth control Dec 2000. Male infertility dx 7 months later. Endometriosis dx 2 years after that. What a difficult ride :( :( Hugs!

Petunia said...

Hi there. Just found your blog through Danielle and love your makeover!
I, too, have not been able to conceive--got off B.C. December 2005 and thought it would happen right away. Started using those darn ovulation sticks which I felt was akin to peeing on a $5 dollar bill and throwing in the toilet. A year ago went to OBGYN to have blood drawn for a week and they said it was normal. Decided to stop trying and maybe it would happen then. Nothing.
Now I've decided that I'm too old and hubby is def. too old and I didn't want to do infertility. I do have a 7 year old so I decided to just be happy with that.
I wish you the best and I hope it happens for you!

I Believe in Miracles said...

I love the new look. Love it.
Still praying for you.
**HUGS**

...love Maegan said...

I was just thinking. ...what a cute blog layout ...why don't I recognize it ...but I know I've been here before..lol ...I like it. It's happy and hopeful! ;)

Rachie Pachie said...

Great idea about the CD full of pictures! I do love the new design, too! Especially the 1st picture on the side of you two! It's gorgeous!